In the mind of Nate

Saturday, September 29, 2018


Hello, so here I am yet again trying to think of a theme that's not going to bore all of you to death. This week was a little more busy for me and I almost found myself making me excuses that normal people usually make as to why they can't do certain things. I'm really glad I didn't fall into that metal trap like most people do. I do admit that being much busier did have an impact on my activity on social media to promote the band and our upcoming show in Salem, MA. But luckily, I figured out how to organize myself a little bit better so that these things don't keep piling up. Here's the flyer and the event link btw.

I'm sure it's apparent to most of you by now that one thing I'm referring to is, Change. After all, it's one of the few things that's guaranteed in life. And then when we need it, we choose not to change. I think mostly because, even though a certain situation be it a relationship that has gone sour, a job or living situation we have outgrown or anything else that warrants a change regardless of the fact that it is toxic, it's what were used to. I myself have done this several times and I have watched as the end result was truly disastrous and I believe on more than one occasion, I have shared some of these experiences here. But, think about some things that you witnessed changed for the better. I remember reading somewhere that early on in his career, Willie Nelson had a completely different sound like most of us have probably never heard and had he continued he continued to stick with that sound there's a good chance that none of us would even know who he is today. There are plenty of other examples we could focus on but I'm sure you see where I'm going with this. I have recently found myself in need of some changes, simply because certain things aren't working out like they could have. It's forcing me to try and stay more focused, organized and discuss ideas with others. And of course, taking a good look at what my peers are doing and how these things are working out for them. One of the changes I am looking forward to is, attending more shows. I actually have one or two friends that can point me in the right direction for that if I didn't find something to attend that night myself. You never know who you'll run into or what else you may discover

I remember awhile back, a few years ago actually going out to see a friend, David Milone play at two different clubs here in NYC that are now both gone(go figure) doing some acoustic sets. I noticed that he had played a song from Electric Light Orchestra,aka ELO, or Jeff Lynne's ELO. The song was their hit "Turn to Stone" and it was very interesting hearing a different version of this song without the parts of a full band, but also added nuances if you will that are unique to their sound, like Soprano backing vocals and of course orchestrated music with an electrified feel. ELO really personified that 1970's sound, yet I was able to learn some the songs to play acoustically as well. You see what just happened there? I took the time to see my friend play some shows again, and I ended getting turned onto more music that I decided to perform myself during my solo acoustic shows. I don't think this was some epic change in my life but I have no idea how great that band truly was before seeing Dave playing their song. In all fairness, I have seen Dave play with another band Ours several times over the years, so I knew I was definitely going to see something I would enjoy. Many times people are reluctant to check something new, not just a band but anything(laundry detergent,gum,etc), because they don't have "buyer's assurance" that they are getting what they paid for. And you can obtain that by making people familiar with your music and who you are. Hence why I decided to ramble on like this for over two paragraphs lol. So to break it up, here is some of the video I took of Dave's performance that I took :

I am hoping that some the changes I started to make with interacting with other bands, fans and other people involved in music will help bring on some much needed progress. This busy week has made me neglect updating my weekly passage in the Rock/Star life planner(sorry Suz)but I think I'm making up for it today by watching a live stream of very informative music conference. So I'm pretty proud of myself that "life" didn't derail me like it has some many others. I have a "career" job and I'm about to watch a seminar about how to quit your job. I often hear the response "where are you going to go?" my Answer from now up will be "Up". While else would you leave your stable, hourly based job that is slowly killing you if you're not planning on going Up? But, One important thing to do is : Change. The one thing in my weekly updates that I have to work on is Attitude. For me it has been something that has held me back since I was a kid. But, what can I say I am from New Jersey? Hey one of us even wrote a song about having an attitude.

In all seriousness, if we want things to change for the better we should change our actions. After all, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. And if there is anything you want to share about making positive changes that resulted being more successful feel free to share in the comments. Because this about me speaking my mind, I am hoping that I have encouraged someone to make this changes they need to make and I am looking for answers myself. Thanks again for reading and enjoy a few songs that inspired this post. I decided to post this live David Bowie video because it is easier to interpret the meaning of the song and its great see him once again.

And another song by one of my main influences that was very different from most of their other songs. It somewhat inspired me to write a different song on my new album called "An Autumn Night" . This was inspired by all the changes Ozzy and Black Sabbath were going through as people after being successful as a band.

Thank you all for reading again. Please subscribe and be sure to click on the link to find out more info on my band's new album

the Sorrows

Thanks again, and wish us good luck next Friday in Salem. Nate xoxo

Saturday, September 15, 2018

Nobody's fault but mine

Well it looks like I almost did it again, and notice I said almost. You see,I almost let an entire week go by without putting up another entry. Yes I'm aware that Tuesday was the anniversary of the September 11th attacks. And what made it even worse was when it happened in 2011, it was in fact on a Tuesday. So for myself and I'm sure many others, the day was very sad with an almost draining vibe to it. I don't have any colorful story of the day to share or anyone that I was very close with passed away so I felt it was best to steer clear of the topic on that day. With the exception of posting a general memorial to those who died that day and I also posted the favorite song of a family friend who we lost that day. In loving Memory of Mike "Buddy" Zinzi"

In my last post, I mentioned the book that I had let it sit around and collect dust instead of using it to its fullest potential : the Rock/Star Planner And delving into it even more so this past week, I've been kicking myself even harder. Because it really has helped put things in perspective. I think I said that last time, but it's really true since it's helped me coordinate the things I want to take care of not just for the music, but personally as well. It really makes you recap your week and see even the smallest things that helped you progress. For example, I went out to a venue that's very close to where I live to meet up with a friend that was performing this past Sunday with his band, Symfinity at the Gramercy theater opening for Tarja, formerly of Nightwish. Besides getting to see some great bands play, I linked up with some friends that I haven't seen in a while and made some new ones. After all, you can't just sit on your couch play your acoustic and expect people to break down the doors of the club to watch you play. It just doesn't work that way. No we can't be at every show and go out every night. But like I stated in my last entry, there must be some balance between work and play(subconsciously, maybe that's why I slacked off on posting this entry because I really enjoyed writing that last one) although on the other hand, to each their own. That just seems to be the healthiest way to maintain a working career in music. We all have day jobs and personal stuff, but their are so many ways to escalate your presence, especially if you have the support of others that will help with specifics tasks, social media pages, etc. But I wish you luck on that, this venture makes you forced to deal with many jaded, pigheaded and narcissistic people that it maybe difficult. That's just what i've experienced in part. It made me even be forced to make a decision about who I work with. Like a wise Man once told his Son (who then told me) "Show me who your friends are and i'll show you who you are"

This may seem like mean spirited advice from a stranger who has had his share of let downs, and your right for the most part. We all have dreams and goals (I think) and when you're younger they are "pie in the sky" with rolling in dollar bills, mansions, fancy cars, gorgeous women or men all around you. But not many are willing to make the changes they need to make or the sacrifices to make that happen. I recall the words of a person that I did part ways with who was all about the almighty dollar and while we engaged in our final argument, I pointed it out to him and he replied " Yes, that's why I have money and you're broke AHAHAHA!" obviously both statements are completely false, so of course I wasn't at all upset. He wouldn't have needed to make unauthorized charges on our business credit card if it was or having to be forced to work everyday of the week. I had just purchased lots of advertising for the band's new album at the time. And I informed this guy (who has yet to have the balls to say any of this to my face) that I am rich in many other ways. I have been playing music for so many years that each show out of town is a reunion with old friends. It's one the best things about being a part of this. Heck any show whether I am playing or not is. And its a chance to make new friends. Yes, money makes things work, but so does comradery, sharing ideas and goals and the willingness to help others. I could sit here and mention all of the cool people I have come across over the years, but you get the idea.

Basically there is always one thing that keeps us doing what we enjoy, Love. And anyone who has been in love before knows that it is usually never equated with rational. But just because something can't be explained doesn't mean it is not tangible or vice versa. I could have a job making twice as much money as I do now, but it would require me to stop playing music, let alone handling all the other things I do to make it happen and that would be death in itself. Yes, I have doubts and regrets but like the title suggests I know who's fault it is. We do get lead on at times, but I have learned to not have attachments and to ask the opinions of those I trust. As Rocky Balboa said to his Son in the final Rocky movie, going and blaming others because you're not where you want to be is what cowards do. Which is exactly what the classless guy that made false insults about my financial situation while hiding behind a phone does religiously.

Well, I hope this made sense to at least a few of you and that this does inspire at least one of you to make your dreams come true. For myself, I've had to work even harder to not get sidetracked due to A.D.D. and Depression but I choose to not let it be a crutch and try and catch myself going off track (Which I may have a bit in this post). And of course, forgive myself. We are after all human and pretty much any situation can inspire us to grow and/or create. I will leave you with this video that I just watched before I started to finish this up and will do so before I start my workouts.

Have a great weekend everyone, Nate

And as always, the song that inspired this post:
Check out Symfinity's latest single "Dynamite" here on Spotify
And Be sure to Preview Imbolg's new Album the Sorrows

Sunday, September 2, 2018


Hello again everyone. Now that I'm back into the full swing of things, it seems pretty ridiculous that I took such a long break from blogging. Recently I've been trying to finish up a lot of tasks that have been stockpiling up by simply not overthinking and diving in little by little to get what I need get done. After completing a few things, I couldn't believe that these things have just been sitting around not finished for so long. Some of the stuff included re-doing the band's online merchandise store to showcase some stuff like new shirts, phone cases, etc that have our new album cover printed on it. My main deterrent was the fact that I started doing this a few months ago absent mindedly placing our new album cover on the merchandise before it was actually finalized to include the album title at the bottom. You see, these little things create lots of mental clutter that kept me from making the merchandise available to people. But this was just one of several things that I've been trying to finish and after they're done and I realized that it only took me an hour or so to do I felt pretty stupid that I procrastinated for so long. One way I learned to overcome this was to simply write down some tasks that I knew needed to be done while thinking about how great it would feel later on when they were finished it to scratch them off the list. Don't ask me why but, this is one of the many simple pleasures in life for me.

The point that I'm trying to make here is, I've been trying to find balance. This was pretty much prompted after realizing how much focus I was putting on music as a whole and missing one of the key elements that keeps a band going, money. Yes for some it's probably much easier to find. And that is why I implore anyone that can give me some feedback as to how to balance things between music business and personal life to comment or message me directly. I really want to know what other people have to say, which should come as no surprise to those of you who follow me on social media as you may have noticed that I always engage people with different questions about music and what I like to refer to as "Music Monday" (or #MusicMonday). And yes it is yet another corny reference to the new YouTube series Cobra Kai, that is a continuation of the Karate Kid story. When it first hit YouTube red everyone was binge watching it and was very excited to see season two. It seems like the craze has died down a bit, but I watch it from time to time and I got to hand it to YouTube for giving people the bait they couldn't resist in order to subscribe to YouTube red. The series is mainly based around somebody who is considered one of the bad guys if you will in the original series, Johnny Lawrence. However, at one point Ralph Macchio's character Daniel La Russo recall's an old lesson from his now deceased sensei, Mr. Miyagi who remind him about a lesson in balance and added to it that balance was not just for karate but for his whole life. Well, for those of you who haven't seen any of the show I won't reveal what happens next. But my point is, in order to continue working towards any goal time management is very important. That also means elminating time wasters from your life. I remember one person that cried up and down that they didn't have time to do certain things, well I'll tell you that this person hasn't really gone far in music. As somebody who early on has wanted to pursue a career in music, I'm well aware of the fact that the actual playing and songwriting are only one piece of the pie if you will. Some people are not good at or not interested in doing some of the other things such as booking the shows, or any of the other various tasks. I not only do these things, but I also enjoy it too. I mentioned a few weeks ago that I was reading a book after attending a book release party. There were actually two books being premiered that evening. This book will help aspiring artists manage their day-to-day chores in order to accomplish their goals. And like Ariel Hyatt's book, Crowd Start I highly recommend it. It is called : the Rock/Star Life Planner. Truthfully I've only begun to dip into this book but I see how it's been laid out and help you not only achieve your goals, but visualizing them as well as making you recognize the things you have achieved thus far. I think this is a very good way to help aspiring artists get organized and not become discouraged by the downfalls that come along with being an artist. Not to mention that Co-Author Suzanne Paulinkski was very prompted when I reached out to with questions I had.

One thing that I will reveal about the Rock/Star life planner and the Cobra Kai series is that both of them urge you to change or specifically "flip the script" as they say. One character had a total transformation, and this is what it looked like :

Well, please wish me luck in trying to achieve this. Every day we all have things we have to take care of obviously and this is why many of us decide that music isn't really worth pursuing after a certain age. I'll have to admit that I was scrambling trying to find a particular artist to reference in this entry. While I was taking a quick break from writing I noticed that a friend had posted a video from Iron Maiden called "Wasted Years". That rings out to me for many reasons, not only are we in fear of wasting our time but I think of the many years that I was unable to see Iron Maiden live up until last year. I think it's a real shame because they put on an amazing show, and to further rub salt in the wound there was someone in our section that had seen them 14 times. Their lead Singer, Bruce Dickinson has truly made lots of use of his time here. Not only fronting one of the most successful metal bands in history, but he has also beaten cancer and he is a licensed pilot with the ability to fly 747 jets. So this basically goes along with the old saying : "where there's a will there's a way". I'm not sure what the outcome of the next couple of months will be. But I hope that it brings on many positive changes for myself and all of you out there. Thanks again for reading and I will speak to you next week, Nate
For more info on the Rock/Star Life Planner please visit : The Rock Star Advocate
I also decided to include a music player so you can preview all the songs from my new album :
And, here's the video for the song I mentioned by Iron Maiden