In the Mind of Nate

Hello everyone, at the start of last I felt that I may have used the title to that post, Long Cold Winter a bit prematurely. Then that idea went out the window with how warm it got here. But I know that you aren't reading to hear about the weather. And NO this is NOT exactly a year in review entry either... This post stemmed from several thoughts I had over the past week and what music I decided to revisit amongst my favorites. Last week I was describing everything involving performing at the 2nd Annual Misfit Toy Mosh . There was part of my usual "ritual" if you will whenever I am out of the house (but especially at our shows) that I forgot to include, handing out stickers. More so my temporary inability to do so and the almost castrating or sterilizing feeling that it brought me. A bit over dramatic perhaps, but I feel it necessary to be able to do so. But this was soon overshadowed by realizing that about 1k stickers have been shared around t...

I would like to start by expressing my condolences to everyone who was blessed to know Ace personally especially his Daughter and Family. Including all of his bandmates. I know that it has been a month since Ace passed. But I am not writing this as a journalist with an obligation to report the latest news. I am writing this as a fellow artist and fan who despite having only met the Man once (I will touch on that later) I am grieving. So like any other art I create, this is an outlet to express myself and as someone who is grieving I am hoping this will comfort others who feel the same way. However I would like to share this link so that you can Pay your respects to Ace I would also like to thank whoever made all this amazing tribute artwork. I wish I knew who it was so I could give them credit. Hopefully this piece becomes a reality. Rip it Out I felt this was the perfect title for a tribute to Ace. Like the chorus to first song on his 1978 solo...

I would first like to express my deepest condolences to Ozzy's wife Sharon , his Children, GrandChildren, and all his of Family, bandmates, friends and last but not least to all of the Fans that he reminded us that he loved at the end of every show (admit it, you're tearing up with Me right now). I Don't Know Hello everyone, I was orginally going to name this entry "I Don't Know" if you read my last entry you may have thought it was part of a pattern. Obviously this was by no means planned of course. It has much more meaning than just three words. I first said to myself I don't know what I can say about Ozzy that has not already been said. What can I write that people don't already know? How can this be valid as a journalism? I said to myself I don't know. In combination with my initial thoughts and "I Don't Know" being the title of the first song on Ozzy's debut album The Blizzard of Oz (for many th...

Hello All, I am glad to be back once again this week to share more with you. Last time I may have been a bit long winded with tones of resentment and bitterness that lead me to finding some peace, some contentment within these struggles. But like I have stated before in one way or another even being content is worry-some simply because it means you’ve settled, or it’s the end, I’ve peaked. So let me state that in most instances, I am never fully content. And it may have seemed like I am not grateful for the things I do have, which also not the case. If you don’t know by you should be aware of how empowering gratitude is and how it will allow you to manifest the things that hope to have come into your life (Thank you once again Robert Zink ). So just remember “Gratitude is the Attitude” and you can quote me on that, like I just did. One of the most anxiety inducing things for any writer is to come up with something to write abou...

Hello everyone, despite the fact that it's been several months since I’ve written here. I have to say this is one of the most difficult if not the most difficult entry I have ever written. Not only that I have found myself lacking the enthusiasm to do pretty much anything outside of necessity, which I common for most people dealing with the type of thing I’m about to reveal to you, but not so common for a self motivated, ambitious person. Usually I will open up a blank page to commit to writing something new and go with it. But, that was over a week ago and here I am. At the beginning of this month I had a death in my family. And not just any family member, I lost my Grandma. Of course no loss of a loved one can be measured In terms of greatness. But it would be more accurate to say that each loss affects us differently depending on what relationship we have with the person that has departed. Of course we were expecting this at some point in the near future since...

Hello all, I must admit this Samhain season has been a bit slow. But still interesting. Most people have their own rituals around this time of year. From the costumes and pumpkin carving, to a trip out of town to a place frequent around Halloween such as Salem or Sleepy Hollow . I however chose to withdraw from one of my long standing traditions, performing live. I just felt it was not the right time and "sitting this one out" wouldn't be so bad. I am a firm believer in do it right or not at all. Still with everything going on I have plenty to reflect on and work towards in the coming months but more on that by later. There is one tradition that I am definitely not going to withdraw from,and that the very root of this celebration(no,not Trick or Treating) honoring those who passed on. As I am writing this, I am watching the sky darken and in between tonight and tomorrow. night, it is said that the veil between the wor...

Hello again everybody. When I first came up with the idea for this particular entry, it was back in early July. And even those it’s the last day of September (and most likely your reading this in October) I. Didn't want another month to go by. I was on the way to the charity show I had mentioned previously Bravo Fest . Obviously a lot has happened between now and then. But oh, I still think that the basic idea is still relevant. At the time, I found myself driving on I-95 up to the show in Connecticut thinking about all of the pitfalls I had encountered trying to put this together. From cancellations, things getting lost in the mail and in general things not coming together the way I had hoped they would. Plus sitting in traffic never put anyone in a good mood. Especially me. Of course this was different than most of the events said I had performed at. Because not only was it a charity, but it was for raising money for our veterans. Whi...

Hello everyone, my apologies for my absence this past week. Sometimes a much-needed pause is necessary. More accurately, reflecting back and being that my birthday is coming up this Monday it's naturally the time to do so. Even though I have referenced this film and the main character's perspective before, this look into this great piece of work (and each form of media it's represented in) is not redundant. I am in no way looking to lose the momentum I have gained this year with consistent entries. I just needed a short breather, it happens. After all, we are human and if the events of this past year-and-a-half haven't taught us that then I don't think anything will. But then again, who am I to ponder what is or isn't or what may or may not happen. All I can really speak of accurately are the things I have seen, experienced and felt. And if there's one thing that the story that inspired the entry taught me, is that our words weaken ...