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All of My Love

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Hello everyone, First of all let me say once again that I am very appreciative of everyone who gave me condolences and for those who continue to read I am very grateful. Last week I suffered another personal loss. For me it was losing a child, all though it's not a human child it is my loss. How some try to diminish the severity of the loss of a pet had me almost keep this private. This is just one of the many byproducts of today's society that we feel we have the right to dictate the emotions of others based on our own viewpoints. Nevertheless, it doesn't change how I feel and he shouldn't be robbed of a tribute because of some blowhards that wouldn't have the balls to say unsolicited and cruel things in person. Our pets do show us unconditional love and we enrich each other's lives. And for some of us, inspire us to be better people. I remember this guy, Pluto (as he was later named), was a small black kitten with a white patch on his chest w

No Eternal Reward Will Forgive Us Now For Wasting The Dawn

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Hello Everyone, This is technically my 100th entry. Although originally I created this blog to promote shows and other news about my band. So officially about another 25 posts or so will be the 100th entry where I'm actually writing. which will probably only be a few more months from now, if by then you haven't gotten sick of coming here and reading what I have to say of course. Either way, thank you in advance it's much appreciated. Even with all the years I've put into this, I'm still learning and trying to find ways to gain more readers and visibility. The point is, we should always be looking to improve things and moving to the next step. As I've said before in some way or the other, for an ambitious person being content his death. it's okay to be proud of what you've done so far, but there's always something we can learn and improve upon and I shouldn't be viewed as a burden. Even with the many years I have spent performing

Here Comes the Sun

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Hello again, I would like to start by thanking everybody who reached out to me last week. Especially those who shared having similar experiences growing up. It makes a person realize that they shouldn't feel ashamed over but they've been through since other people can relate to it. but here I go, stating the obvious again. This past week I had much more time on my hands, and for the most part that was a good thing. I did find myself overthinking or going into a negative pattern with all the empty space around me. It is very symbolic of somebody's passing. You go to a place or enter a room that the person that is no longer with us once occupied and there is this ominously empty feeling it goes along with what you see there. Especially if a person had died suddenly. I was really mindful of this after seeing the scene in "the Men with" Marlon Brando (his first starring role infact), which was set in a VA Hospital and one of the guys there went in for a

The Tides

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Hello, in my last entry it may have insinuated that I found it easy to overcome some of the mental health issues that were either pre-existing or happened to develop during the pandemic. anything that goes untreated is going to become worse and you will not simply go away overnight. So even if it's so you can do I encourage people to just do one small thing in the direction towards recovery. Even researching where to find counseling is something. We are all aware of how the mind works, so what I am going to speak about will certainly not come as a shock to most people. This week I suffered a loss in my immediate family. For my own reasons, I would like to keep some details private. I was not close with this person, even though they helped raise me. When they were at their best of course. Even with all the bad things that transpired their was some good. For the most part everyone has some good in them if you look hard enough. We would talk about music, like most peop

Wasted Time

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Hello everyone. After last week I don't think there's any way I could top that, so I'm not going to try. But I'm also not going to allow the the shift in my schedule or the fact that this it's a holiday weekend to put things to a screeching halt. For many this is the time of Lent in which people are supposed to give up something they enjoy for a short of time. With everything that's going on in the world right now most people, regardless of religious beliefs or lack thereof are already giving something up they enjoy. And not just one thing, in most cases several things. For many it's almost as if our lives our assembly being put on hold until further notice. Anyone who read my last entry, knows that I decided to not let my life be on hold and took a trip out of the country. I think the airlines and the place I was staying did a very good job of keeping everybody safe. Despite not requiring a vaccination (as if they h

Come Sail Away

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Hello everyone, this is a very special entry for me because it is the first-ever that I have written outside of the United States . I'm in Mexico right now on vacation. I'm sure some of you are wondering why I decided to stop relaxing and do something that may be considered part of my routine or work. And believe me, I have been relaxing. It's been great being away from everything (especially Fakebook) using the phone primarily as a watch or a camera (when I didn't leave it in the room). Anyway, I will tell you why. It's because am not of that mindset. See if you enjoy doing something than it's not work. I see this as an opportunity to write something for all of you to read for the first time ever while in another country. I would be more annoyed or regretful (even though thanks to some spirited advice I have been teaching to myself not to be) if I did not take this opportunity. I mean it's not everyday that I can honestly say that I am writing

Holy Ireland

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Hello everyone, before I get started I just want to let you know that despite the name of this entry, this is not a religious post. You'll see why I did this, I always explain. may have noticed the change in the appearance here. And I did have to include some ads, just so I can keep this running. unfortunately that's how things are these days. In order to keep at something there has to be some sort of money flow. Although when I started writing I'm here many years ago, it was not my intent nor did I have any knowledge being able to make money from this. By you doing so, not having to rely on other sources of income as to free up my time to focus on projects like this that I enjoy doing. A major goal for Me personally. I mean, who wants to be stuck doing something you dislike or working at a place that has the ability to let you go at any time? But many of us have been programmed to believe this is the only option we have in order to survive. survive as an e

Nobody's Home

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Hello all, I'm just here yet again, hoping that I am going to maintain this level of consistency and confidence that the answers are going to simply come to me. How they come is none of my concern, but I know they will. We actually had our first band practice in oh, I'm too embarrassed to say how long. Not just because of the length of time, but also due to the fact that what has been going on in the world this past year has had an impact on my motivation. I'm speaking specifically about things that we can do( wow, I caught myself before I said permitted to do) by surrendering even the smallest piece of your mentality is a defeat as far as I'm concerned. I somewhat hinted at my disdain towards the mindset that is plaguing our society now. Although several people are jumping on the bandwagon so to speak there are just as many other people that find it ridiculous and can see what it's really about. Simply the lack of accountability that is considered the norm