In the mind of Nate

Tuesday, November 19, 2019

Stuck in the Middle with Who?

Hello, if you read my last post you'd know that I am in the middle doing our radio campaign. Debuting at #36 on the National Metal charts was very encouraging.

However, these days it seems like for every one step forward you make, things either fall back or stay still. I know most people don't know or don't want to know the day in day out struggles that most musicians have these days in order to survive. On top of having a job outside the music industry, we have to write,rehearse and promote our music. But it is rewarding being stuck in the middle if these two worlds when things pan out. But when they don't and you are left with unsold merchandise,playing to an empty room or another band's audience asking yourself is this even worth it? Ironically,one time we played in the middle of a bill with two other local acts in Astoria,NY (I'd mention them by name but the douchebag hipsters don't deserve any publicity), I watched the first band and the headliner was so frustrated about not going on 2nd (isn't a headliner supposed to close the show?) that not only did one act not play, but they decided to insult us by leaving the room and told their crowd and the other band to join them while we played like it was our fault. Besides the handful of people who learned about the show only days before we essentially played to an empty room. So I guess I was Stuck in the middle with who?

This may seem like tirade of complaining and bitterness about things I should keep to myself out of sheer embarrassment.But, if you went witnessing pass bandmates, other bands, patrons promoters and pretty much everyone involved in the music scene not doing the right thing Time After Time(and I admit myself included at times) you be pretty fed up too. Most bands have at least one or more of the "I just show up when they tell me" types. Meaning, they come in, learn the parts, and got told when to come to rehearsals and gigs. They are an asset but in this day and age, a half assed asset. I never understood how someone could trivialize spending a few minutes a day talking to friends about your shows and post on social media. To my knowledge, no one has been injured by tapping on their phone screen to hit a Share button. I have an over-dramatized my response to this down so well, that I have been told that I should do stand up comedy (but one thing at a time). I have noticed that these types are the first to complain when a show doesn't go well.

I stand by my statement from previous entries that things are not how they used to be and in a bad way. Society as a whole has changed, people had more sense of community and friendship, a band was a living breathing being with four parents who strives to for a common goal. The appeal of Rock bands was personality along with talent and every one shared a bond. The core of the success of bands from yesteryears such as Led Zeppelin or the Doors is that bond. Not only with each other but with their audience. Which is one of the reasons I started writing this blog. I wanted to give people some insight into how the life of a musician is, with hopes that someone could relate to it.

The modern music industry has many advantages with technology making production and the finished product being much easier to obtain. But, that is part of the problem. Something worth having won't come easy in most cases. Downloading a song won't cost most people a red cent and years ago we had to go to a store and spend money on music. There was no other way. Also with the ease of production their are many acts that make up an independent scene and bands with no label representation often get misguided,misinformed or are unwilling to be informed. Those who do educate themselves are left in the outside. I have realized that there are few people willing to do the things required to be successful. Yet as I stated earlier, all of this is usually keep behind a closed curtain in most cases.

So what's the solution? Most likely it's different for everybody. But for myself, I go back to why I'm doing this exactly. And that is, for the love of the music. Many times I have consider just packing it in with the band after all of the time and money that has been wasted due to all the circumstances I have previously stated. But why would I stop doing something that not only I love but defines me due to some one else is lack of love for what I do? Don't get me wrong, there are some people that actually value and respect what I have done and for the good people that I have interacted with, I am truly grateful. Like I tell people just starting out in music : this is NOT something for the thin-skinned. There's many times when people just want to shit all over your work just as a way to project their own insecurities and self-doubts I hoping to destroy yours. So it's best to surround yourself with positive people and people that can lift you up and lead by example. And of course, always be learning. This industry changes so rapidly that it's best to keep informed with the latest trends and learning resources including books and live workshops that you can attend, which I'd be more than happy to let you know about & you can also look my other Blog for Music Industry Resources.

I thank all of you for reading this once again. I know this came off is a bit of a rant or a venting session. But many people don't realize how things truly are for the independent artist that is working hard to keep what they have going afloat

And here's the song that I somewhat copied for the title of for this entry

Thanks Again, Nate

Friday, November 8, 2019

Imbolg debuts at #36 on the U.S. Top 50 Metal Contraband Radio Charts

Thank you to Metal Contraband & WMFR's Metal Fortress Radio for making this happen. We hope to continue to work alongside both companies as we continue to climb the charts! I should also mention that Imbolg was also #6 in the top 10 most added to radio stations last week. And also a big thank you to Munsey Ricci from Skateboard Marketing for making this all happen. Please check some stations** below to find out what stations play our music and how you can request it.

PLEASE NOTE : Programming times & days vary due to many of these being college or community stations. Also, most stations can also be heard online thru the TUNE-IN app or by visiting the station's webpages which have been embedded in their respective call letters. **A complete list of stations is available to our street team only, for more information on how to join please email : foreverautumnrecords[@]

WIOX 91.3 FM Roxbury,NY In Goth We Trust Thursdays 10PM-Midnight 607 326-3900 (I do call in interviews on this show occasionally)

And here are some online stations that play us too

Wednesday, October 23, 2019

All Apologies

Hello once again, I chose this title because of my consistency of being inconsistent. And of course I am sincerely apologetic about it. This year has been extremely rough and the way of suffering so many losses. I would say both personally and professionally, but the people that I have lost in the industry also happened to be personal friends.

unfortunately, some of these losses were do to suicide, something that I have found strongly to try and prevent whenever and however I can. It hasn't been easy oh, and I have received some backlash from it. Which, I merely have brushed off as the small side effect. I don't mind somebody being angry towards me if a life has been saved. And, I do regret that I was unable to prevent certain people in my life from taking their own. One of which was somebody that many in New York City and Philadelphia no as DJ Alex Von Nihil, who in the past was featured in this blog during happier times. I truly miss speaking to Alex on occasion about music and are other zany interests(such as collecting pictures of people with mullets). He was there for me when another close friend and former bandmate had passed away,Lynn Haze. I really can't account for the actions of others, but unfortunately losing somebody often does bring out the worst in other people. But I will leave that as a vague statement and not get into details. Although in part, I shouldn't even mention anything negative. However, this is my forum to express anything I feel the need to express. And for that I make no apologies.

I would however, like to make everyone aware that currently a fundraiser is being conducted for suicide prevention in Alex's name, which anyone can donate to if they click here. There is also a tribute event in Philadelphia. I will have more on that later when I receive more details. I would also like to point out that, I would like to organize a tribute show to Lynn Haze in New York City if anyone out there that knew him personally is able to help. You're more than welcome to join the facebook group that we created in his memory : For the Love of Lynn Haze

For anyone out there that is suffering the loss of any loved one, this link can help you find other people in your situation that you can talk to if you feel the need Grief Share. I know it seems like I'm a be loading everyone with a lot of information. However, I have noticed every time I log into social media it seems like somebody is suffering some sort of loss or another. Whether be a family member, a close friend or a pet. And with the passing of mental health awareness and suicide prevention month, I think it's especially necessary to recognize these things. Often in the past, many people with mental health issues (myself included) have been scorned verbally as if this were a criminal act that was committed and not an illness that nobody was seeking to suffer from or looking for treatment to prevent. Often times these things are misunderstood and the need to ridicule or bully others is brought out when people are at their lowest point instead of being offered a solution or some form of assistance. That is why any chance I get, whether it be on stage when I'm performing or simply talking online or in person I encourage people to not be ashamed to ask for help and to never turn a deaf ear to those seeking aid. The Council of a peer or family member can do wonders for a person in crisis.

I hope that reading this has helped anyone that has been suffering a loss or dealing with depression, PTSD or any other form of mental health issues be uplifted and see some hope. I would also like to offer a personal hotline that was given to me through my employer that can assist anyone that needs help in any way shape or form. Whether it be counseling, legal aid or any other form of assistance in your daily lives. 800 833 8707. Remember, you are not alone and there are people who care for you. You can always reach out to somebody who is willing to listen, including myself if you were comfortable with that.

Thank you all for reading again, and I will end this now hoping that I made a difference, and I will let you know that there will be more tribute to other people that have touched my life. Please enjoy this video, in memory of someone that we did lose to suicide, the late great Kurt Cobain

Monday, September 23, 2019

The latest from Me & the Band...

Hi, I know this is Technically "cheating" as in the way of a new blog entry,but it is still new writing. Their will be more, and I did include some updates in this entry included a short video. I just made, and there will be more where that came from. Thanks again for reading, Nate

For Immediate Release :

On October 1st, Forever Autumn records will be releasing the second album by Imbolg entitled the Sorrows on Vinyl LP. This album will feature a new mix of the single "Red Devil" which was remixed by Jez Ball of Winter's Thrall & formerly Empire Hideous. To accompany this new release, the Sorrows will receive airplay on radio stations throughout the United States and music video releases of the aforementioned "Red Devil" & "Paler Still" as well as some tour dates throughout the Northeastern United States, starting with a performance in Providence, Rhode Island at the Alchemy Club on September 15th. Tour dates in their hometown of New York City as well as, Baltimore, MD,Delaware, Philadelphia have also been confirmed. More dates coming soon, will be announced at a later date. For more information on these upcoming performances, or where you can pre-order the Sorrows Click Here